fucking fucking fucking
like try living in a shit hole where everyone hates you and ignores your existence and treats you like some shit. like diarrhoea. what the fuck right my life is like screwed lah i did not screw anything up i was like so freaking nice to the mother and she treats me like that. fine. fine. FINE. she keeps saying she is not obliged to feed me and give me tuition and all this shit. it is not like i want to stay here also. i would rather go sit on sulfuric acid ok. why is my mother like this.
i hate my life. fuck. like why cant i die when i want to and why must i live like some shit like that. i am so sad. got anyone give a shit anot. i also not in their world anymore already. they dont want to be together with me anymore already.
i am so sad. where is the love? there is no love there is only pain hate fear and rejection here. and i cannot do anything. coz i suck. that is the explanation to everything. hahahaha.
and there is still got math test, and i going to get f9 again, even though i like studied my shit off. still cannot. if still cannot i am going to get retained lah hahaha. already failed two terms. see what the mother say. throw me out better then i dont need to see you you dont need to see me also right. then good. isnt that like what you wanted always. like didnt you always wished i had not been born. yeah i also wished.