I HATE MATH.
i sucks at it you know whats i fails it again (:
how how how.

it is not my fault i am stupid and cannot do math

F MATH

so sad me.
i have no one to speak to etc.

i failed geog again ):
so sad i.
so so so so sad.
i dont want to study anymore because i am very sad and nobody care about me ):
like they dont care about me.
very depressing.
i feel like lonely.
everyone has some one (s) and i have no one.
is this depressing not.
i shall die quick please.
i want.
shit homework.
nobody want to talk to me now.
i hate me.
):
why must people treat people like shit.
gonegonegone. missing missing missing.
ignore me hor ):
JUST FUCKING TALK TO ME PLEASE.

hiiex. my mother is abit nice to me today.
this is so weird correct.

HIIEX. so nice right. ♥

MY MOTHER ( I HATE YOU ALOT ALOT & VERY VERY MUCH )
is a fucking human being with no moral values.
she took away my phone for 93 days. not only that she read my messages and fucking deleted them. she reads my messages every single fucking day man. and whatthehell my teacher still talks to her and complain to her about me somemore. then who i complain to ah. she like this do correct is it. then why i cannot sleep in class ah. SAY LAH. FUCK ADULTS MAN. i will not pay taxes so you wont have your old folks home byebye.
damn fuck.
and she prevents me from talking to my friends. like what the fuck right, she has no friends so i also cannot have. she loves to make my fucking life fucking miserable.
haha, i have no friends left man.
it makes her damn happy.
is she allowed to do this? now i have no life.
i dont know the past i cannot face the future.
damn fuck. why is my mother like that.
I hate my mother.
DAMN FUCKING UNREASONABLE.
WHERE GOT MOTHER TREAT BIOLOGICAL CHILDREN LIKE THAT.
SHE FUCKING DO THIS TO ME MAN.
I HAVE NO FUCKING PRIVACY AT THE AGE OF 15.
OH FUCK WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS MAN.
AM I SUPPOSED TO LET HER SEE ME BATHE NEXT TIME OR WHAT.
LIKE IS SHE GOING TO CONTROL THE NUMBER OF TIMES I GO TO THE TOILET AND THE NUMBER OF PEOPLE I TALK TO PER DAY.
IS SHE STALKING ME ON FACEBOOK.
KAY FUCK.
ONCE AGAIN I HAVE LOST MY LIFE.

FUCKING MOTHER MADE ME ALIVE TO FUCKING TORTURE ME thankew very much.
i cannot tolerate this fucksense anymore. i WANT TO get out of here.
its living hell.

what the life is this right.
i have no phone.
i cannot go out.
no friends.
no money.
see this.
is it better to like not be alive.
I NEED TO DO IRONY NOWWWW.
i hate school.
really.
really really hate.
i feel very hated.
blardy blardy blardy.
stupid.
stupid.
stupid.

i have to study like fuck every single day.
my mother is unreasonable like fuck. and my teacher tells her everything.
like that helps right.
i dont want to fucking study anymore
BUT I FUCKING HAVE TO
what the fuck is this.
i cannot do it.
cannot. cannot.
or dont want.
kay whatever.
i cannot do it.
because i suck okay.
okay.
i am the saddest-er-rest-er-rest-er-est person in the world! yay.

i wish GOD exists

all the peoples have stopped being nice to me.
they have came, give the big fake smiles and said the big fat lies.
now they are gone.

i should go too right.
how do i go.
how do i start.

i feel fucking stupid after tuitions.
the teachers keep telling me i am going to fail
and what am i supposed to feel?
see like i dont understand any fucking thing, i cannot ask cause it will like be a burden to the teacher cause he needs to teach the other peoples. so i cannot ask cause like. i have been inattentive, lazy, sleeping etc?
so now it is all my fault and i deserve it.
and i cannot improve already.
yeah like cause i am from like this school so i am like supposed to do well an all that cause im like so privileged and all. so i am expected to understand everything that they say. i hate tuition. i hate it.
i am so going to fail math. i cannot tell anybody cause my mother will know cause the teachers think i am like some fucking problematic creature. and my mother will confiscate away whats left of my life and never ever give it back.

okay now. i must go and understand all this shit on my own.
nobody is going to help me. not even god cause he hates me now.
everything hates me.
even the trains, and shoes, and books, and school anf tuition and math and physics.

this is so discriminant.
cause i am so fucking stupid/argly so nothing helps me.
i hate this man. can i give my life(?) away.

I SWEAR THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY (LIFE?) IS THE DAY I DIE

hi i am here to talk to the computer because i dont want to talk to myself anymore so.
yes hi hi hi i failed math test again i thought i would pass but of course no such luck
because i am the like most unluckiest person in the world and i have nothing nothing nothing nobody nobody nobody
everyone is no longer giving a CARE about me. isnt that depressing.
i want to be talked to can
why cannot
see i dont know.
why is god doing this to me lah.
first he make the rain drop on my head then my hair drop off alot
then he make me fail my math test
he dont let my friend talk to me
he let my friend scold me bad thing
he let my mother rule me
he let my teacher complain to my mother
he let me ugly
he let me fat
he let alot of people dont talk to me
etc etc etc

why do i thank him for doing all that.
its a learning process yeah i am supposed to grow from mistakes and failures is it.
yeah how long is it going to take dammit
why do you even give me happiness when you are going to take it away
this is really horribly horrible.
i live saddingly really.
got people say i am damn irritating cause i keep whining so yeah.
its the only thing i am good at let me do it.
FUCK IT ITS NOT LIKE I WANT TO BE ALIVE
fuck it why is this happening

today is the saddest day of my (life?) really. the saddest. nothing can beat this sadness

hi, my (life?) sucks alot alot, my teachers keep scolding me and i am supposed to think i am wrong an horrible and rude and selfish but i dont think so
and my friends seem to think the same way to
look why am i alive, i did not ask to be alive, i do not want to be alive, do not want to go to school I DID NOT ASK FOR MY LIFE AND I WOULD GLADLY DIE ( why do i have to thank my parents for bringing me to life so i can be tortured and so i can torture others too ) is that logical.
why do i have to work and might not even get the outcome i want and yet other ppl do not have to work and things come easily to them.
and no one want to listen to me cause they think i am damn pathetic, yes i think that way to dont have to make it so obvious thank you
i hate this world, its so screwed up and i am supposed to be grateful to be alive in it.
why do ppl have to lie. especially when they say they wont. it sucks when they say they wont lie and they still lied.

i am not living like a human being.
my teacher keeps scolding me and when i try to explain she says im stubborn dont wanna listen to her and shouts at her. she makes me sound like an animal (yes fine i know i am but you are not any better) this is because i am not from some elite school or rich or smart or famous or. which is why she despises me and does all this.
this is very very very unfair and i cannot say anything about it so i am typing it here.
and i am supposed to accept my (life?) the way it is and cannot say anything because thats selfish etc.
why is life unfair to me and not to other ppl. what it is not the way i view my life oks. so are the ppl who have suffered earthquakes and tsunamis supposed to think their lives are pure bliss and happiness.

i say nothing. i do nothing. i have nothing. i am nothing.

my life sucks very terribly and when it sucks i keep drinking coke until i get fat fat fat and then i cannot pass my napfa see what a life i have ):
okays now i got to go and study for physics I HATE
i feel very very very sad, like i am dying from sadness, drowning in sadness
I say nothing, i do nothing, i feel nothing, i am nothing

SO MANY MANY HOMEWORK
I WANT TO MURDER MYSELF
ITS NOT LIKE I ASKED TO BE ALIVE
AND NOW I WANT TO DIE SO WHY CANT I

i have a horrible physics tuition teacher, she keeps scolding me when i ask her questions cause i asked her, what if the angle of incidence is 90 degrees, then will the angle of refraction be 90 degrees, then she started rambling on about some shitz i dont even understand and she said, I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM. so now she thinks im retarded cause i ask retarded questions that should not be asked, like why is the sky blue etc. this is so horrible she is so sexist, she never scolds the boys one.
SEE BOYS ARE SO LUCKY
WHY CANT I BE A BOY