i cannot live properly.
fuck my life. screw it. i hate myself, more than you hate me more than anyone can hate me. do you think i like like this. i hate it. i hate living a life like that.
do you know that nobody loves me. do you know i am a pathetic useless piece of shit who deserves nothing.
i have no friends correct. i have nobody. nothing correct.
fuck. i got no one to talk to.
why do i still bother to go and socialize. to like go and talk to people. coz i suck. i want people to notice me. to notice that i exist.
why am i like that. why. is not like i want to be right. i cannot have feelings anymore you know that. i am so sick of this fuck. nobody gives a shit about me. becoz. i. was. not. in. anyones. world. in. the. first. place.
i have a own planet how cool. i talk to myself and the people i make up.
what the fuck is wrong with me.
i feel so stupid.
i was nothing since the start.
how can nothing become something.
nothing is still nothing.
everybody is busy studying.
what the heck i am doing.
i cannot get anything into my fucking brain.
fuck.
i dont want to go school.
i hate it when people keep saying they will help me they are my friends.
then why is my life still like that.
believe in god.
more like fantasies.
how many fucking times have i tried to pass a fucking math test.
how many fucking times have i tried to give in.
how many fucking times have i begged.
how many.
its not like asking alot.
fuck fine lets go compare with africa and madagascar.
oh i live a fucking luxurious life i got internet i got phone i got school to go to i should be so fucking blessed.
yeah okay. why dont you just take my place and try.
since you think i am so fucking blessed.
i am being left alone to die in the dark.
and i have so many people who love me alot.