so i am depressed about my existence.
but i want to make a difference to my society, like what Mr Tong Yee talked about.
i have found what I have a passion for.
Unecessary food wastage in hotels, selfishness of hotel workers to their counterparts ( i know this sounds lame ) - as in the cold emotional and physical distancing la, and unfair treatment of hotel managers to waitresses/waiters at hotels. ( i know this sounds super lame but how put it in fancier, poetic-ish english? i can't
losing the ability to speak by and by as i cannot seem to engage or formulate a conversation with anybody, not just a new group of people. or after i begin a conversation, i kill it almost immediately.
so today i eavesdropped a lot of conversations. like i heard this one guy telling his friend he wanna take 4H2s but his olevels maybe die already. 15 points. wth why is he whining about such a good score.
i wanted to ask him, 'why you want take 4h2s?' ( and then laugh a little friendly laugh or make a friendly sound ) but the words get stuck in my throat. i also wanna ask him what school he wanna go. and he was talking about a level subjects and stuff and i wanted to share my knowledge on a levels but then i did not want to come off too kpo or what lor. so i also never say anything.
so yea. everyone like come together and have fun and joke while i lone around like a lone ranger.
so sad me. how do i survive in the world with the inability to communicate or form relationships.
i die right,
yeah its mostly my fault.
hate myself and hate this blog. its a waste of space and not helping anyone.
hello? hello? has anyone received help from this blog.
