now i feel very sad. my teacher keep telling me i going to fail the stoopit piano exam coz i never listen to her. i got ok. and the stoopit exam in like three weeks time. fuck lah. if everbody got listen and they can do it then no need take exams alr lah. no need go school study alr lah. what shit. fuck. now i am going to fail lah. see i am trying to live my life properly and no one is letting me do so. then i have no guts to die. like coz its an irreversible change. i want some people to like go out with me everyday and everyday talk to me. like today i walk to macs alone then buy ice cream and sit there and eat alone. like a loser. and i keep buying food and keep eating. like i am mad. mad. crazy. siao.
freak lah, i am so blardy lonely. nobody msg me or ask for my number at the camp ):
where is my life manz. there is no direction.
if only someone care right. then everything would be more bearable. like the song. 至少有我的温柔我的问候陪你度过
i am like living alone. like live alone. live with myself.
like however hard i try i still must live alone ):
fuck
i hate it
and i look so disgusting compared to everyone. i am so jealous of everyone.
i feel insignificant.
i want someone to tell me that they love me daily.
fuck i am turning mad.
therefore it is okay to ignore my presence and i am okay with being ignored.
kay fuck i must shut up and do glog now.
if not i will die like a piece of shit.