i have irrelevant thinking why is this i only care about myself and how pathetic my life is when there are people lying hurt and in big pain i am here sitting alive and well i do not cry for other people i only cry for myself for sixteen years i realise the times i have cried is when my life sucks or when i do not get what i want it is always like that i have no heart i dont care for the life and death of people i have no feeling like a man tou and all i do is sit and rot away while people help me to stop rotting while i complain about my rottenness what am i trying to prove here on this blog this blog is a selfish place where i talk about myself in order to gain attention from the public the world wide web i only care about myself i date myself narcissistic self centered okay yes please stop reading this thing called a blog it is materialistic and superficial it is a surface area which is fake it is untrue i want to sit long times with you and do things for you i want to give you love do you need love from me am i capable of giving love i keep telling lies can i help you with you homework it is because you were teaching me then you were hurt i am sorry this is because of me but you know god dont punish me physically because the physical hurt is like too easy punishment but he must make me see it on other people what i caused out like the victim is the poor planet earth who give me a home and raise me up and i hurt it like how the trees all die and how i step on the grass and use a lot of non biodegradable plastics sorry
i only sit around heartlessly doing my own things for my own benefit never once have i thought of other people i am caught up with myself i am filled with myself
you raise me up and i stood on mountains i stood alone because after you brought me up you fell