i have alot of problems. i cannot solve my problems. how can i like do math problems. how. i hate surds. why google cannot teach surds. i hate surds. hate it. i hate log. i hate. why must know how to do surds and log. why. for what. is no use. i hate math. i will fail. once a failure always a failure. and i just did the best math paper ever. like throughout the whole year i always fail right. and then this time i fail worse the ever because i just stoned at the fucking paper without doing a single question. i mean like i just did 2 freaking questions out of 7 questions. the rest is like BLANK. like i will get like 5/40. okay thats it. and now i am in the saddest part of the world doing very very sad things.
I AM ALL ALONE. ALWAYS ALONE. and i wish i would shut my fucking big mouth up.
like i wish i never need to go out again, coz i have a fugly face and fugly legs and arms. and i will give people sore eyes by walking on the streets thus committing a terrible sin.
i wish i is dead. why dont i just get on with dying already huh.
fuck fuck fuck.
what is wrong with me.
and i dont like my family because it is very small.
i want a big big family so i can have lots of people to live with and sleep with and eat with and talk with.
i will make a big big family for myself i swear. okay that is my goal. i will live for a future big family.
okay good.
it gets harder each day you know anot.
i got no one to talk to. anyway also dont need to talk what if got nothing to say dont bother talking right. i also got nothing to say to anybody anymore. its having a pointless conversation haha. soon we will all die in silence or something. i have gone really really mad i talk to my chair and table and papers and pens. what the fuck. i cannot exist like that right. i want to die dammit. it is torturous to live like that.