pathetic - ism

today is the saddest day of my life. really really. what the fuck lah right okay. today got two fucking test like geog and physics. what the heck is geog right. i wrote like rubbish for geog BECAUSE I STUDY THE WRONG CHAPTER. walao waste my memory space! the stewpeed eguatorial climate and climograph and convectional rain and relief rain ALL NEVER COME OUT. and they ask what negative impact flooding has on the environment. i wrote like, plants cannot survive in excess water they will drown. what the heck i forgot everything ): and my xiaoyou and andria went home ): super sad okay. and my suyuan started crying so all was very very sad and depressing. okay fuck. fucky fucky fuck.
and then. i go home that time. then i go home. raining man. what the shit. the heavens also dont like me you knows. then i take the bus. and the bus never wait for me. so i have to take the next bus. so bad. they discriminate against me. then i go home. yes. and then i must go return the cds for my mummy. and so i walk to the hougang mall because i too poor to take a fucking bus. and then and then. i return already right..
i look and the cds. then i saw this vvvvv nice show called Dear John. its a vvvv nice movie. educational and romantic and loving and vvv nice. AND IT IS NC16. then the woman down there say i cannot borrow. even though i was willing to pay four fucking dollars for it. she say must 16 then can borrow. i feel so sad okay. i want to cry. i do not even have the right to watch a fucking movie. she say must have mother or father come take then can. is there a difference. THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE.
i am still going to watch it what right. discriminate against age. 15 very young meh. huh. what the heck. according to the much more accurate chinese calendar i am like 17 okay okay. how can this happen to me. got people 15 can watch nc16 m18 and r21 movies in the cinemas okay. why i cannot dear john. why why why. i am being treated unfairly. my sister is like 9 years old and she watches the orphan. she so young should be watching cartoons right. why she can i cannot. and then also got people can go online watch porn right. also no need show ic. huh. why i cannot watch dear john. all the romantic movie is all nc16. this is shit ok. at 15 we have to learn stupid physics and learn about temperature and climates and stupid internal conflicts and go and understand that when you put your hand on the table and the table is exerting a force on you. which means the table is like alive. how can a 15 year old brain understand this shit and we can even watch educational videos on underage sex during CME sex education THEN WHY I CANNOT WATCH DEAR JOHN. what the fuck is this. fml fml fml
i want to watch dear john ok. there is so much love in it. why cannot watch. love is need to be spreaded around one ok.
how can this happen to me. everything always happen to me hor. everything that is vvvvv bad. see i can only watch cartoons like barney and winnie the pooh ( which is vv disgusting because the pooh keeps smelling the piglets butt and the pooh is boy and the piglet is girl ok ) shouldnt winnie the pooh be nc16. harh. whatthefuck. and teenage. teenage is porn ok. "17 and sex in public toilets" WHAT THE HECK IS THIS MAN. and primary school chewren are allowed to buy it. "hi i am a loyal fan of yours and have been reading your column since p3" and this person goes on talking about how she loses her virginity etc etc. then other chewren read about it and go and try it. isnt this worse than watching romantic nc16 movies by nicholas sparks. why they can read porn and i cannot watch dear john. why why why.
so isnt today a really really really sad day. i failed physics and geog and i study until my brain exploded. and then i got v disgusting for math also which is lowest in class maybe lowest in cohort too. walao. so screwed. or unscrewed. my brain is unscrewed. shit.
shit shit shit. and i got no phone. phoneless friendless fiend ):
STUPID EOYS STUPID STUPID STUPID.
i really really really going to retain.
my mother will kill me so i must kill myself first.
i suck. how. what should i do with myself. i feel very disgusted being me.
cannot do maaaaath cannot cannot cannot ): so depressing i only passed like 5 math tests since sec 1.
shit. and i cannot study coz i watch ghost show. i v scared the ghost ):
and florence says i need to go icu in imh coz i am really mental. ):
stupid sucky school. ):
saddest day of my life );
and then i dont know how to thank the ppl who help me until so much ): teach me math physics chem geog wake me up in class etc. ( andrea xiaoyou kiayuen grace florence melissa maryanne lokyan siowpin fangwei xinrong yinsiang andria joey etc etc. )
never let me be alone. ):
what if next year i can no longer see them ): ): then how then how then how.
): FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML
fuck fuck fuck. i hate coming home, like shit like that. there is no love. can we all just go and die or something. then can make the headlines right.
i must shut up now. i am very irritating. byebye. i hate myself.
i wonder how long will it be before i get to see you again? ):
how to say. i wish i got more to say manzx. i like it when you smile :) i like it when you laugh at what i say :) you laughter and smile is v nice. you are awesome. you have a great smile and great laughter and you should smile and laugh everyday. you are great. you have powerful features and beautiful eyes. you have a fantastic mustache. im not kidding. you are amazing.
i want to see you smile everyday :) lolololol validation
where is you. where is you. where is you. ):
i very tired i dont want go school i want stay in a hole and die.
ok bye.