i need to get out of school and go to the saddest part of the world and meditate and get over myself. i hate myself. i need to get over myself. i need to not be myself. i cannot live like this anymore. i very scared.
nobody going to friend me. likethis. likethat. no more friends already due to my terribleness, shit this. i cannot do anything lah. i do not give a fuck anymore lah okay. because i am still going to die in the end. i cannot stand it already lah. i also cannot sit it. what to do now? got this competition called the physics air race competition and it is terrible. i am going to become a disgrace to the school. no i have already became a disgrace. i am a disgrace to school man. i am the black colour sheep. i wont get dirty one because i already dirty. and nobody likes me. i am a friendless fiend. why is life likethis. why must it be against me everyday. it is terrible. then i become very weird, i cannot think properly i cannot concentrate properly. look. i hate my disgusting life. despicable me.