today is the saddest day of the saddest year on my entire life.
*i know no one gives a shit but this is for my own reference can?*(quote)
yea anyway i want nice fresh foods form cold storage.
its from the fresh food people.
i want to be just like them.
i feel like i am not in my own skin.
i have awkward incidences when going out which is very sad.
i must cease all going out activities at once and retreat to the safe haven of my space.
and theres this very nice teddy bear crayon on the fram of the wall in the house. i think it has been there for like 10 years already.
i like old things. they are like historical artefacts. it has rich culture and is highly valued.
i think i am thinking in pieces. like the thought are unrelated one. like one minute i think of cold storage then the next i think of a book i want to read. or like, why is uncooked fish called fish and cooked fish still called fish but uncooked pig is called pig and cooked pig is pork. idk why, like idk everything else. probably doesnt have an answer hor.
oh yes. i did something very not nice a few days ago. i will record it down here so it might be referred to as a source next time.
a few days ago i was loitering by myself at bishan looking for nice things to spend money on because the money was putting a considerable weight on me. so i came across nice shops like gift a name, artbox, mini toons etc. decided to go into all the shops and finally decided to buy a leather strap with my sister's name on it as it was going to be her birthday on 13 dec. so i choose the beads for like 30 minutes, then choose the strap for like 10 min, choose the accesories to dangle from it for another 20 min. yes very long right. then the bill become until 22.90! which was like so super ridiculously skyrockethigh! so i ask the woman to take out one dangling accesory which was like 3.90. okay then the bill become 18.90 which is still like very very great and will leave me with no food for the next one week. so . but thats not the point so i told her o take out another accesory and she was like pissed. 'wei shen me ni xian zai cai jiang wo yi jing chuan cheng yi chuan hao le leh ' grumpy pissed off look. so i said okay okay bu yao jing lah sorry sorry, then she just stalked off and take it out. then i paid 14.40 in thed end but i said sorry and thankyou! and she never acknowledge it.
i can never go there again. she recognises me.
i can never show my face man.
i think it would be nice lah, if we can have different faces to wear on hor, then can see how people treat you when you got different face. then can see their true colours. true colours is good, its waterproof. and very very good quality.
i think i dream what i see. last night i was watching this japanese occupation show for 24 plus hours then i dreamt of some war-ry thing.
quite nice.
like if you know you is in dream then you can do anything you want! very cool right.
oh yeah then i watch the cai hua heng yi chu xin xiu show! they asked one of the contestants this question, who's secret do you want to know the most. then the guy said, my own secrets. because i dont know what i thinking of sometimes so if i know my own secrets then i can solve some problems (or something like that)
i doesnt understand his answer siahx. it doesnt make sense i think. i think he too nervous or something
but anyway after pondering about this question i think my answer is, i want to know russell lee's secrets the most!:)
i want to see how he looks like and how he write the ghost stories is it real one anot.
and.
i still cannot do math.
poor poor me.