I know now most of things are my fault my deserve. So I am not going to ask, what did I do to deserve this? Instead, I will ask what should I do in order to not deserve this? Yup. Sorry for flaming you. I suck. You can put the blame on me. Mostly it is for my own good. Therefore. I will put in effort and do you proud. I have I goal. I hope. I dont know what I have. Now I know. I have a lot. Thank you for making me realise that. It may sound unreal untrue but I love you. This part is for my own reference. But the above, is reliable. Is truth.