hello blogger.
this is for my own reference. any coincidence to living material is not coincidental. ah shit. can i say fuck. can you invent another word that i can say to represent worst feelings than just FUCK. because fuck is a major major understatement.
i got diarrhoea everyday. fuck fuck bloody fuck. ah that felt better. i have a great life. fucking perfect please. i got school anxiety. no i got maggots in my stomach okay. then i can faster die slowly and people will visit me and i can live at least some days of my life in like bliss. i feel is good to have like seven days of bliss then compared to like fifty years of misery ( i going to die at like maybe sixty six unless i got nice happy familee. or my either parent die then i will together die with him/her. ) i got extreme body failure can. shit. why is this happening. i never commit enough i never do enough good deeds karma or what shit. i dont disturb you you dont disturb me okay. i dont nice to you you also dont nice to me lah okay can please. if not you nice then i not nice enough back then how you will hate me forever and ever and got bad bad impression of me then how. or i nice to you you not nice enought back i hate you also not nice right. i hate alot of people okay. so i suck. this is the answer to all questions. until the questions become rhetorical. yah. answer is cause i suck. okay very good. i dont get it lah. please.
i hate studying. i cannot study. i cannot function. i want coma for seventeen years. then i wake up everything will be nice. then i can be reborned. i got split personality i think. no i dont think. in short i hate my life and everything about me myself and i. i am not going to talk about God anymore. i have no right.