was supposed to go to band concert yesterday
but i didnt
because

i dont know

people are gettin irritated wif me
not toking to me
i will try to stop forcing people to tok to me
buddhen
buddhen
i thought
i was improtant
or something
meant something
now
perhaps
i do not
anymore
dont know what to say to people
how to tok to them
how to understand
so
maybe
i should
just
keep quiet
and
not say
anything
anymore

this is my own fault
not being able
to
understand
to
try
instead
forcing people
pressurising people
to
understand me
to
accept me

being paranoid
and thinking to much
i should stop
stop
stop
stop

assuming
and thinking
must stop
but
unable to stop

now there is really no one to tok to
i need to apologise
but
it is too late
i try
to sms them
i think
they muz be really
irritated
and pissed

now
they do not reply my sms
i will stop
being
so desperate
i hope
that
i can

now
i have
lost
all my
friends
due to
my horrible
behaviour

now
i am
alone

i hope
that
the people
i have irritated etc.
can
still
friend me again

i am sorry