rant>
okayy. i really messed up my lyfe. its horribly screwed up.
yeah. now what do i do.
there is no direction.
i do not want to go back to school.
it is a frightening place.
why must i go back.
the house is more frightening.
why must i stay here.
why must i live.
for what.
i feel disgusting.
i feel rotten.
i am horribly horribly lonely and lonely and pathetic
i have to spend my days alone
rotting
and waiting
i want to go out
OUT
OUT
with somebody
everyone not free only i the free one.
which is apparently why i am a.lone.
i need to find something to DO.
something to HOPE for.
something to LOVE.
haha saw this on tv mobile.
DO. go to school. and try to accomplish the impossible.
HOPE. cross my heart and hope to die.
LOVE. love the feeling of loneliness and patheticism

okay lol. what was that.
that was rubbish.
i have a rubbish lyfe.
can somebody come and pei me.
like now.
NOW
NOW
spending the days alone
is so not nice
i am going to spend new years day alone
just like christmas
why is it always like that
i want to see somebody
and go out
OUT OUT OUT
of this not nice place
this sucks
can something nice happen
i feel horrible and rotten
and keep thinking of stupid stuff
i cannot go to sleep
i shall go and bathe
then i shall continue to rot away
until somebody sees and comes and brings me out
my lyfe sux ttm.
okayyy. thankyou.
thankyou for putting up with my suckish attitude.
i have done so many horrible things.
but. still got people so nice to me.
haha.
weird right.
thankyous.
i love yous.