i will stop feeling desperate
i will get a grip
i will stop thinking of things
i will stop whining about my life
i will stop being a selfish freak
and consider other peoples feelings


today.
actually had someone to msg
then
maybe i irritated the person so much
by toking rubbish
and being idiotic
being irritating
then the person stopped replying
i seriously cannot be understood
therefore
i get no friends left
take people for granted
make empty promises
dont understand people
dont know how to communicate with people
got so much to say
got so much to explain
but cannot
because i dont understand my friends
i want to sms them
tok to them
i cannot
i dont know what to say

and then
thanks people who listened to my whining
my complaining
desperation
putting up with my weird behaviour
thanks
Peining, Megan, Cheryl, Sharlene, Huimin, Jiasing, etc.
thanks

i did something really stupid
i tried to cut my fringe.
by myself
now its really ugly
so i better stay at home
and wallow in my sorrow

okay thats all
anyway nothing matters anymore
i hate
the freaking life
in this lonely planet
i feel
so dead

byebye