So, what now?

Just another test of character, my patience in how to (yet again( deal with grave disappointment.
How much more of this trying must I try? How much before i finally get the courage to end this shit once and for all? How much?
I can't help thinking to myself
If there was a God, He/She wouldn't have let this happen at all. To good people.
Because what is the purpose of education? to churn out students who obtain straight A's and applaud their academic efforts or instill in students values and life skills ( like how to deal with disappointment and not be so self-absorbed/have this disgusting sense of self-entitlement etc) well it seems that in Singapore the former is more applicable.
The fact that my school applauds people who can juggle BOTH CCA co-curricular commitments and academic achievements in heavily ironic. because the ones who have other commitments would have a more fufiling time and hence a much more positive outlook on life (sure you might say that they are faced with more stress, but no they actually benefit more from the other commitments) and they get extra help from teachers as well, have more friends to share notes with bla bla so look who's talking now?
for example, if you're in the EXCO of the debating and oratorical society you would be exposed to various debating styles and benefit from networking with your teacher and coach (some academic genius) and hence develop better essay writing skills. hence scoring better in General Paper. and other Arts subjects. so the fact that you're doing well academically despite other heavy commitments is a no-brainer????? it doesnt make sense.
and usually these co curricular activities just boost the person's ego all the more. they get accepted into the best univerisity courses monopolize the academic industry and then what next?????

what is the outcome of this JC education then? is resilience merely about academic achivements and how to network with others for the sake of personal reasons? (like oh i want to earn lots of money wealth status in future so i must do this now NOT because i genuinely want to help society)

Singapore, you are not my country.