The Mother Fucker

i have a fucker for a mother. i have a fucker mother.
the first thing she says when i come home is 'pig you are an oily fat pig useless doing nothing only know how to eat. seriously what the shit? what a high level of intelligence and extensive vocabulary use.  i hate her. and because i hate her i hate my grandmother to, because my grandmother has conceived evil, and this evil is taking control of my life. i just said stop calling me a pig shut up. go and die. and she's like i dont give you money anymore. ya ya whatever, i'll make it known to as many people as possible. the authorities hopefully. that you are denying my relationship with you. fuck you bitch. seriously why is my mother like that? FUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I FEEL THIS BURNING HATRED INSIDE AND I WANT TO SHRED HER AND EAT HER HEART AND PLUCK HER EYEBROWS ( SINCE SHE LIKES EYEBROW THREADING SO MUCH ) AND DEVOUR HER LIKE A CANNIBAL.
like. when people say they wont go overseas for their jobs if they have a choice because they will be homesick, i wanna be like them so much coz they have such a close family. that loves each other and support each other and not threatening and condemning and pushing the blame here and there like in this fuckmily that i have.keep using money to threaten me ya, i will very no face when i got no pocket money to eat in school. and i will be even more no face when i ask my aunt and cousins for money. so i will not ok? i will find other means dammit. this is all because of this shit upbringing you give me yeo swee leng. your name has an "unlucky" connotation to it. like sway. sway leng. just one letter difference. this is why you are unlucky. sucks to be you.
she doesnt even care that i am working this part time job while studying for fucking a levels and dealing with all this emotional trauma shit and the fucking teachers of pioneer junior college. ( yes one of them a Mr Lee i think who looks a lot like he's balding, and has a big fat pot belly from pigging out and alcohol bingeing. yes he marked us all lte at 7.44 am. when the school rules in the handbook clearly says. mark attendence between 7.45 and 7.48 am. so when he asked people 'why were you late today' i really wanted to say ' BECAUSE  YOU MARKED ME LATE DUH. to put it in crude terms, because a fucked- up, balding male teachers who clearly achieves sadistic satisfaction from destroying students' lives marked me late. ) yes apart from all this shit i go through at pioneer fucking junior fucking college.i have to be insulted here. by a mother.
why did i turn out like that? thanks mum. thanks a million!!!
so like. many teenage girls are having underage sex. i can get something out of it. can make a living. would this yeo swee leng bitch give a shit about me? nope.
i hate my upbringing. no character development, or counselliing from friends/teachers/counsellors/psychiatrist can help me. obiquek me.