dont leave me like this.

'look at it this way - say there's a snake out in the desert, and the snake eats a rat. Its the food chain, and so its no big deal. God isn't involved. And then say you're in Africa and a lion eats a gazelle or something. Same thing: food chain; God's not there either. But then say that same lion one week later kills a human being and then eats that human being. What - suddenly God's involved in it? - like we're the only divine link in the food chain or something?'

shit i dont know. am i a very hypocritical thing or something?
does God love pigs and chickens? why is it okay to kill chickens for food and trade chickens but not trade human beings. why are humans not food?
then i experience this bad thing, lets say in school. then i go home and home is better. so God is blessing me? i have a good thing here and then a bad thing there. so it is balanced.
however going to church is good because i learn to become a better human being.
did God come to Singapore?
if he love us why got people commit suicide and screw up.
is it cause they never go to church?

but i am blessed. is it by God? do you hate me for talking like this? i might get killed cause i talk shit with no conscience. i am just a fuck up.
i have many sweet and nice people who care alot about me and celebrate my birthday four freaking times.
am i slime in God's eyes?