miracles do not happen
i swear it
they do not happen at all

im just alive out of habit.
its a really really bad habit.

shall i be ego and talk about myself.
okay i shall.
right now.
i am freaking alone.
and someone just came to talk to me online.
i was so happy i could die.
yeah, then when youre happy, you will be sad that youre happy isnt it.
cause sadness lasts forever.
and i want somebody now now now
i want so badly
very badly
because i miss the person a lot a lot a lot
i dream about the person
fantasize, obesess, hallucinate
and i cannot like live without the person
what the heck is that,

yeah okay
i finish,


thankyou for reading
and i love everybody
i think its called love
if such a thing exists

okay thankyou

if youre depressed and you know it slash your wrists
do it now

anyway.
i suck.
i am APONH
A Person Of No Hope
my mother confiscated my phone
i hate my life
it sucks very very much
the people i live with
live on my sadness and sorrow
it makes them happy
cause i am so damn sad
sadistic
my life sucks
what should i do
why is it this
i shall talk to my shoes now
converse with my converse
my fake converse
everyone should try it
cause its so damn fun
i am not even allowed to use the com
to use the house telephone
i am not allowed to have any contact with the outside world after school
this is the best thing that could happen to anyone
oh haha i rather go and eat mud patties
bye
bye
bye
my life is a sack of shit

ARE YOU HAPPY BECAUSE YOURE SAD.

ARE YOU SAD BECAUSE YOURE HAPPY.

ARE YOU SAD CAUSE YOURE SAD.

ITS SAD TO BE SAD.

IS HAPPY A SIN.

WE CANNOT HAPPY.

CAUSE ITS WRONG.

CAUSE BEING HAPPY IS A SAD THING.

CAUSE IT DOES NOT LAST.

BUT SADNESS

ITS FOREVER

LETS ALL BE SAD

I AM SADDING ALL OVER THE PLACE.

its terrible.

cause yeah.

bye.

freaking sad.

okay fine i will shut up.

this is a nice song that i found in a cd.
it is very very nice.
and very very sad.


I'll See You Again


Always you will be part of me

And I will forever feel your strength

When I need it most

You’re gone now, gone but not forgotten

I can’t say this to your face

But I know you hear



I’ll see you again

You never really left

I feel you walk beside me

I know I’ll see you again

When I’m lost, when I’m missing you like crazy

I tell myself I’m so blessed

To have had you in my life, my life



When I had the time to tell you

Never thought I’d live to see the day

When the words I should have said

Would come to haunt me

In my darkest hour I tell myself

I’ll see you again





I will see you again

I’ll see you again

I miss you like crazy

You’re gone but not forgotten

I’ll never forget you

Someday I’ll see you again

I feel you walk beside me

Never leave you, yeah

Gone but not forgotten

I feel you by my side

No this is not goodbye

一句话就离开
不会头不眷恋
摊开手心
断开的感情线
从此分割两边
会不会再有交集的一天
无法忘记
怎么忘记
我等在这里
等成孤单的断点
往事一幕幕 我要如何 如何忘记那样绝美的曾经

YESTERDAY. was the HAPPIEST day of my 14 years and 18 days of miserability. I realise i have such an AWESOME and LOVING and NICE and FANTASTIC class. 3WISDOMMMM 2010. :) heehee.
THEY SANG ME A BIRTHDAY SONG <3
oh my godness, i love them so so so much,
and those ppl who smsed me, so nice.
thanks so very much <3
In caregroup they surprised me with a birthday cake, it was really really really nice, this is seriously seriously, the best birthday i have ever had okayyy.
i dont know what to sayy, those nice nice people, who have made yesterday, the happiest day of my entire life.
THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH <3