Memories

So my life has been improving, i think. I think it's the work of God in my life. Or is it the natural order of things. i really dont deserve this good life now.
in primary school i had good memories and made good friends, had good teachers, attended alumni camps, had crazy feelings for a senior (is it even love what is love anyway) liked/loved him since i was Sec 3
in secondary school i had loving friends who wrote me post-its and encouraged me, teachers who bought chicken rice for me, bought fans with his own money for our classroom which had no windows no ventilation, had nice canteen food to eat, lived in a happy lovely warm caring environment with so much love that i can never reciprocate though my studies were shit (L1R5s of 41-45), i complained and moaned and blamed my parents but after graduating i realized how lucky i was to be in st nicks and had all these friends and teachers that gave so much unconditional love
in junior college i thought my life had gone to shit, people were cold (at first), gave me superficial smiles (or so i thought), teachers didn't care (or so I thought), CCA sucks, school system bad (or so I thought)
that was in J1, had so many unhappiness and bitterness in me but now things are improving idk what is going on but i am so thankful to all of you
-  MG15 '12
-12A07
-Debates mates & J1s who are ever so enthusiastic, friendly, weird, & Y who always hugs me when she sees me, thank you:')
-Chongqing cse trip friends
-Relief teachers who always put the fun in learning, ever so dedicated - Mr L, Mr S, Mr H. i probably should not mention any names here in case i get into the spotlight again

so the girls from 12A07 were always every so supportive and listen to my whinings and complaints and depressing thoughts i love you all so much i really dont deserve all this
thank you debates teachers in charge who gave me the opportunity to participate in competition, attending every training session with us, advising us, providing moral support
thank you cse trip friends who always smile at me and wave to me and helping me in math, eating breakfast on late Thursday mornings, T and her lame jokes and funny accents that always bring joy into my days
thank you MG15 for providing that shelter and familiarity every morning at our MG table. I didnt dare to sit with you all last year but you are all so lovely and sweet idk what to do thanks for teaching me math and asking about my life i cannot thank all of you enough the laughter we shared, teasing each other,, studying together, talking about school, teachers, teasing each other i am going to miss that so much can we please meet up often even after we graduate please dont let the whatsapp group die
dearest debates mates who are ever so funny and perky and weird, always teasing each other, watching each other's antics, spurring each other on during competitions, helping out for ICDCs.
we have grown closer this year, making up for so much lost time. i love you all so much
wtf was wrong with me last year thinking everyone was intimidating and competitive and scary

thank you school thank you MOE for making the school thank you PAP for making MOE thank you Singapore for making PAP