Since almost every single fucking thing in this world is represented in monetary value yup that's the fucking cost of my so-called prom night. OK pardon the vulgar language i had a bad night it was really a disappointment. (not considering the cost invested that did not receive a similar rebate wtf am i talking my english is really gross) OK I MEAN like the money paid for the whole night was totally not worth it.
Firstly more than half my class was not there. (off to a bad start) and i didn't like the fact that we had to make up tables. like we had to find people to make up one table. I mean ok that's more convenient and cost-effective but there's no sense of community. Why can't they allocate tables according to classes? since the class itself is the main emphasis of this whole prom fuss. seriously prom is overrated crap.
let me explain in point form.
1) Half of the class not at prom - dilutes the purpose of the prom in the first place.
2) The emcees were celebrities - unsuitable to host prom, waste of money to hire them in the first place to make sexually derogatory jokes about women - sick humour as a form of entertainment =.= wao (' hey, what's the difference between iron man and iron woman? - one is a super hero the other is a simple instruction ) wow wtf. then. ( 'eh all the selfies pro, take pictures very pretty but in real life ugly)
3) Clubbing music played throughout the dinner - totally unrelated to the emotional gravity of graduation cannot eat in peace -
4) Kopitiam food served at 7x the price & it was cold
5) Missed out one course of the 8-course dinner promised
6) A beauty and popularity pageant - highlight of the prom - totally unnecessary, increases physical insecurities in males and females from a young age - increases the social construct of superficiality
7) Tiny ballroom - really seriously fucking tiny - if it is going to be so tiny, why are they charging us so much? Swissotel is in the CBD area as well - same price but so much bigger.
8) Waiters and waitresses who kept asking to clear our food even before we had the chance to finish eating (cold food)
9) The gross amount of money spent on this and the fact that this is socially acceptable and also praised by my teachers and principal
10) The video montage - which should be the main highlight of prom was fucking short
11) Many teachers did not turn up - teachers who were really important in educating and inspiring the JC journey ( i really miss the English H.O.D Mr Ivan Lim, geog teachers Mdm Selvi and Mr Osman, Mdm Chew but they were all not there)
12) Nothing really meaningful - no singing of the school song, reading of the school pledge, things that truly fostered school spirit were not done
and moving on to more personal reasons:
13) I had to wear heels and a dress even though i did not want to, i wanted to wear my school uniform/really casual clothes just to make a statement/satire on the social perception of the dress code
14) I looked and felt like a prostitute because i wore a body hugging dress - like wtf was i trying to do wtf is wrong with me i think i wanted to look sexy because from the pretty pictures i see on social media girls were able to pull that look off so i tried to copy that but i turned out so badly sexy, a pathetic failure
15) It was a mad rush to take photos with various groups (CCA, class, oversease immersion friends,, Matriculation group) and the people i was not so close to but still desperately wanted to take a photo with to remember my JC life why do i bother doing that, does it really mean anything?
16) I felt so self-concious and inferior to the males and females with their elaborate hairdos and outfits which the emcees constantly reminded us of
17) They made us leave at around 10.50pm and we had to crowd in that small space outside just to take pictures becoz we had to seize the chance to preserve the only moment we ever look good and so as to not let tens of our parents' hard earned money on the elaborate hairdos and outfits go to waste i really didn't want to be in any pictures with the various cliques i was not close to but i did anyway. i smiled for them anyway. because what else could a person like me do?
So what could be done better?
In my emotionally subjective opinion, i propose a few suggestions:
1) Let the emcees be our teachers. No one understands the school culture and the graduating cohort better than the teachers. and their antics are what makes school life enjoyable. i really miss Mr Barry's fatherly aura, Miss Yap's sassy-ness and wit, Mr Osman's lame jokes about his hair Mr Ivan Lim's I-bra etc etc. and I'm fucking sure the rest of the students do too. so why don't why spend the money on hiring emcees (who make crude sexual-innuendo-ed remarks) to hire the teachers instead? and their tickets could be paid with the fund used on the celebrity emcees who knew zilch about our school culture
2) Replace the stupid beauty pageant that just emphasizes bodily insecurities and builds people's egos and materialistic personalities with class performances/more video montages.
3) Don't even hold the prom at such an expensive and tiny ballroom. We could have it in school - unique and absolutely apt since it was on that very school compound where precious relationships were forged - and more affordable, and reasonable since most of us do not have an income and thus there would be a higher turn up rate if it were held in school. and we wouldn't be cleared out so quickly before we got the chance to take enough pictures/finish our food. (omg so angry about this i can't even) and in school we can go home at whatever time we like since we own it. we could even have the after party there, such a homely and cosy feeling that would probably be less felt in the corporate world
4) Sing the school song/ recite the school pledge together as a cohort - symbolic and united school spirit
- TBC i feel fucked up now and need to fufill social roles as a sister, friend, niece cousin student resident singapore citizen global citizen and whatever shit this world expects
I know i am being very idealistic and extreme, but this is what i truly feel. If anyone from PJC/principal is reading this i hope you can organise a better prom ( i hate this euphemism why can't they just say graduation) next year. and yup, if you have any thoughts about this, leave me a message through facebook/whatsapp or where ever
and if my vice principal sees this i hope this is not too vulgar and rude and offensive if it is i will express my thoughts in more euphemistic language. sorry for the rude posts last time. and thank you for giving me cold hard advice. i remember what you said about education, 'it is not merely about your academics, i know you are doing ok but this is about your emotional well-being if we cannot teach you the proper values then we have failed as educators'
or something along those lines.
thank you, it is hard but i will try to be a better citizen and i know i am extremely lucky to enjoy such good social welfare and subsidies for my education from tax payers' money
so yup, although i feel ambivalent about graduating like that I am thankful and blessed by the experience and especially my cousin and aunt who have talked to me about proper values, helping me to adapt to a new environment thank you very much.
and now i miss st nicks so so so much, i just want to go home. quoting Michael Buble's song,
' i wanna go home'
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