today i go to school and was increasingly sad. today is the saddest day of my life. then i returned home and became sadder. hahahaha.
have i gone mad?
i can no longer stand life's everlasting pain
everlasting rejection and then waiting for acceptance
and then the stupid human is there having faith and hoping and hoping like shit.
wishing for some kind of miracle to come,
and it never does.
like this.
i am everything i hate.
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i am very very sad ):
even if i go to someone and say i am very sad. they is just going to be like so? because it is not their problem and they are not obliged to talk to me. only i is obliged to talk to meself.
why why why.
where is the love. where is the people. where. why. what. when. who. how. fuck
i hate everything about me. fuck
who am i man.
even if i go to someone and say i am very sad. they is just going to be like so? because it is not their problem and they are not obliged to talk to me. only i is obliged to talk to meself.
why why why.
where is the love. where is the people. where. why. what. when. who. how. fuck
i hate everything about me. fuck
who am i man.
fucking hell fucking hell fucking hell
my mother does not give me money and will not give me money.
yeah so nice right. so strict and disciplined family i have.
she expects me to bring my sister to tuition tomorrow. and i have no money in the freaking ezlink card. i ask her for money topup the card. she says. no . its your problem.
FUCK.
i will only give you forty five sens to take the bus. oh fuck. then i tell her, its fifty five sens, she says, no that is if you pay by cash. so i tell her then you give me 5 dollars in the card. she says no. your own problem settle yourself. i will only give you forty five sens. this is my problem yeah. what the fuck why is it my fault once again. she can come home at like 11.35pm and i cannot. and she did not even give me food. walan eh. then i am still expected to bring sister to tuition with no money for transport.
fine i shall go and be prostitute and earn my own fucking money. i bet i can earn more than you. dammit.
my mother does not give me money and will not give me money.
yeah so nice right. so strict and disciplined family i have.
she expects me to bring my sister to tuition tomorrow. and i have no money in the freaking ezlink card. i ask her for money topup the card. she says. no . its your problem.
FUCK.
i will only give you forty five sens to take the bus. oh fuck. then i tell her, its fifty five sens, she says, no that is if you pay by cash. so i tell her then you give me 5 dollars in the card. she says no. your own problem settle yourself. i will only give you forty five sens. this is my problem yeah. what the fuck why is it my fault once again. she can come home at like 11.35pm and i cannot. and she did not even give me food. walan eh. then i am still expected to bring sister to tuition with no money for transport.
fine i shall go and be prostitute and earn my own fucking money. i bet i can earn more than you. dammit.
i have eighty sens. i am extremely poverty.
i dont even have money to take a bus home.
no money no money no money no money.
nobody loves me.
i wish i have some money.
but i no have.
i have no love no money nothing okay.
MY LIFE (?!) IS SCREWED UP WITH A VERY BIG SCREWDRIVER.
i wish i can die by wishing i am dieded.
where is some people to talk to. yeah i know they are not obliged to talk to me but like just talk to me come on!
i need to go and try and study.
if not i am thoroughly wasted and worthless although i already are haha
i dont even have money to take a bus home.
no money no money no money no money.
nobody loves me.
i wish i have some money.
but i no have.
i have no love no money nothing okay.
MY LIFE (?!) IS SCREWED UP WITH A VERY BIG SCREWDRIVER.
i wish i can die by wishing i am dieded.
where is some people to talk to. yeah i know they are not obliged to talk to me but like just talk to me come on!
i need to go and try and study.
if not i am thoroughly wasted and worthless although i already are haha
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