i very sad

i very sad.
bye bye.
i hate everything.
i hate everyone.

'Religion is bullshit'

when it comes to bullshit, big time majorly bullshit. you have to stand in awe, IN AWE in the all time champion of false promises and exaggerated claims- religion. religion easily has the greatest bullshit story ever told. religion has convinced people that there is an invisible man. an invisible man living in the sky who watches everything you do you every minute and every day. an invisible man who has a special list of ten things. ten things one should not do and if you do any of these things he has a place full of fire and smoke and burning and torture and angusih where he will send you to live and suffer and burn and choke and scream and cry forever and ever.
but he loves you.
George Carlin May 12 1937 - June 22 2008
Thank you George Carlin, your insight was of huge importance for the human race, you will be greatly missed by many.
You are forever in our thoughts.

hello. my blog very ugly is it? like me. no but if the blogskin nice nice the angmoh not pro also nevermind one lor please. no one cares. everyone wantsto read blog with nice skin. whatever. i also got ugly skin then dont talk to me la please. anyway i think i very stupid lah. not think. i KNOW. why must go facebook. stupid facebook is freaking poisonous coz i have discovered some horrifying truths cannot sleep/study anymore thank you very much. and i will refrain from using the f word. yay! coz everyone is using it and in order to stand out i will invent my oen f word. the word shall be. chamda. k i dont know where that came from. anyway its a combination of the names of two people i dont like. they very mean okay one borrow my money dont want return yet stays in a castle and has a limousine to ferry her to the school and the other think she very chio and is very rude to me because i am not chio. i am very angry now whatever. i can wallow in my self pity and console myself. stupid internet. if the internet was a book how long would you take to read it!57 000 years 24 hours not sleeping. yes. due to retarded people who cannot stop talking about themselves. like me. yay. this is myspace. i write whatever i like. yay. its all about me! so angry now.
but still. aiya. stupid facebook. i so jealous people add people dont want add me leh. why ah. just add me leh. i very lonely siahx. add people coz their profile pic very nice rightz? coz their profile very glam right? dont know what blah blah university what blah blah school so smart one. then the face so chio one. i also want go make. so important the face, no one cares about whats inside. what is this man. yah lah. like some replacement like that you know? i also cannot so self fish want you to stay with me forever and ever. want you to be nice to be only. cannot right. you must disperse the seed of kindness to everyone and everyone will be kind to you back. but i dont want like that leh. can special anot? make people feel so privileged so special for what. very free meh. okay lah whatever.
i must be very sad so no one can make me sad anymore.
hahaha.

Ok. I dont want to go to heaven for one day and then be back in hell forever after that day. I'd rather not go to heaven and just try to find happiness in hell.

I cant say I hate you because I dont. I cant say I wont talk to you again because I will. 我像是一个你可有可无的影子冷冷看着你说谎的样子我是一个被你囚禁的鸟but all I can is pray and hope is that you'll stop setting me up and saying things that you know you dont mean.

What I want

Ok. Yeah. Anyway I have thought of what I want to be. I want to be a maid. Then I can work from home and have free food and bed. Just a thought of the day. What is this man. Need to go practice being alive nao. Anyway I really dont like this and everything. Because like we can never fight the system however hard we try? We cannot defeat our fate or what. I have lapsed into an everlasting depression oh shit. Actually I dont know what direction my life should take? So. Nao I am going to talk about myself. Because this is my blog. This is all about me me me. Firstly I dont want to go to school. And I dont like all the shit like for example being treated like a sack of the shit. Et cetera. Such a sad life. Where is the friend/friends? They have gone away. All this friendships is temporary and will capsize anytime. So worried and troubled. Ok. Too sad to write anymore. To be continued.

RANT.

I am going to RANT today.
Dyspraxia. So chim. The condition where you become incapable of initiating an action. I Hate to studying. Hate. Okay. I will meditate and find my inner peace. When you are depressed time is lost. So if you are not depressed you dont have to find the lost time. I want to make time feel longer. I get my time in bulk. Anyway I do not know what I am talking about. I have a split personality. Now. What is going t happen to me. Shit. So sad. Majorly depressed. Cannot I am very happy now. Happy happy happy. Stop living in self denial lah. But its a nice place to live in. I want to live there forever. Studying is not important. The human heart is more important. I am going to cultivate my heart. Shower it with abundant love. Bye. Good luck to everyone who needs it. Ask and it will be given.