Thursday, May 12, 2011
Is it worth it to pay like five hundred dollars every single month just to get an L1R5 of 8? Is it worth it. Just save that freaking fortune and then no need to study already. Study to get money. But I already got money so study for what? Put the money in the bank and earn compound interest okay. Does a1 guarantee a freaking future. Yes it does omg. Whats this man. Very despair now. At the edge of a breakdown. Because the poor dont have that option okay. The income gap is just going to get bigger. School is filtering out who is going to work in pulau semakau and who goes out and buy kate spades and earn fifteen ks a month. I've got no money no money no money like you!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Too busy making a living to live. Composite face. I have got no noonew like you. In remedial fail. In tuition fail. Live for so many years still die. Whats this. I want to live for 750 years. Then I can get a1. I can understand everything there is to understand. I can uncover layer after layer of lies. I will see the truth. One day. When I am the only one of my kind alive.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
understanding governance of your brain
but actually your freaking brain is governing your thinking! omg how to understand the brain. is like thinking to think or something like that. shit. or thinking a thought.
i will talk in mature way. i will have sensitive response to mankind. yes.
i want my existence to be a significant one.
anyway i quite angry with this human in my species lah. is she the same species as me? i think she is a rare species and must be analysed by professionals.
because she talk weirdly. lets analyse this ( i am not going to emphasize it because i am not a professional and thus should not act like one and highlight stuff that is not confirmed as important/worthy of human attention. ) i care for the eyes of my readers.
so here goes:
I want to salvage our friendship. ( note the failed attempt at the use of cheem english! )
But we have to work together. ( what this is a job meh? under primary/secondary/tertiary/quaternary industry? )
I know you cant stand it when _________and I talk about studies, perhaps you feel left out. ( coz i am so much smarter than you, duh. thats why you bore me and i leave myself out coz i am so much more interesting than you so i go talk to myself. dont even need to waste saliva because i can communicate telepathically and improve my angmoh coz i contemplate. and note the missing apostrophe at the cant? whats cant? cunt? dont know how to use basic angmoh still use salvage. ) WHAT THE FUCK YOU THINK YOU VEH SMART? IF YOU SMART THEN I ALBERT EINSTEIN. BUT OBVIOUSLY ALBERT EINSTEIN HAS PASSED ON SO I CAN NEVER BE HIM AND THUS YOU, TOO, CANNOT BE SMART.
Pls ( dont know how to spell again ) dun ( don't? you know angmoh anot? ) be offended if we correct you, cos ( cosine? i know cosine square plus sine square equals one! i smart man at least i don't try to speak math language and angmoh together. mathglish? what the shit is that ) we want you to excel.
( OK. how sacrificial of you to advise an ignorant human like me ) and i form a bad impression of you! oh no i have sinned.
please do not fart here into my phone thanks. and stop your verbal diarrhoea. you may be smart but you are obviously not a human being. if i ever compare myself to you it will be like hey look at me i prettier than that cat there! the cat cannot use mascara but i can! and im taller than the cat. and i also got long pretty hair! i smell like lavender and roses but the cat smell of soil and drains! in conclusion more people will talk to me instead of the cat! YAY.
what the shit is this. freaking funny.
makes me laugh like crazy to myself.
i am not going to be offended, more like amused right. because i have a higher literacy rate than you, higher human development index ( duh coz you are of a totally different species altogether ). and everything you say that might feel like a witty insult to others is going to come back 6 x 10^23 back to you.
do not think even for one second that money is everything. at least do not think YOUR MONEY is everything. other people money, maybe yes. but not yours. coz you use a different currency. ( you not human ) spending alot of money on your friends does not mean that you can insult them and treat them like pangsai.
sometimes we feel guilty when we talk or even think bad about you but you have the freaking amazing talent to take away all compassion we have for you.
be that way.
i will talk in mature way. i will have sensitive response to mankind. yes.
i want my existence to be a significant one.
anyway i quite angry with this human in my species lah. is she the same species as me? i think she is a rare species and must be analysed by professionals.
because she talk weirdly. lets analyse this ( i am not going to emphasize it because i am not a professional and thus should not act like one and highlight stuff that is not confirmed as important/worthy of human attention. ) i care for the eyes of my readers.
so here goes:
I want to salvage our friendship. ( note the failed attempt at the use of cheem english! )
But we have to work together. ( what this is a job meh? under primary/secondary/tertiary/quaternary industry? )
I know you cant stand it when _________and I talk about studies, perhaps you feel left out. ( coz i am so much smarter than you, duh. thats why you bore me and i leave myself out coz i am so much more interesting than you so i go talk to myself. dont even need to waste saliva because i can communicate telepathically and improve my angmoh coz i contemplate. and note the missing apostrophe at the cant? whats cant? cunt? dont know how to use basic angmoh still use salvage. ) WHAT THE FUCK YOU THINK YOU VEH SMART? IF YOU SMART THEN I ALBERT EINSTEIN. BUT OBVIOUSLY ALBERT EINSTEIN HAS PASSED ON SO I CAN NEVER BE HIM AND THUS YOU, TOO, CANNOT BE SMART.
Pls ( dont know how to spell again ) dun ( don't? you know angmoh anot? ) be offended if we correct you, cos ( cosine? i know cosine square plus sine square equals one! i smart man at least i don't try to speak math language and angmoh together. mathglish? what the shit is that ) we want you to excel.
( OK. how sacrificial of you to advise an ignorant human like me ) and i form a bad impression of you! oh no i have sinned.
please do not fart here into my phone thanks. and stop your verbal diarrhoea. you may be smart but you are obviously not a human being. if i ever compare myself to you it will be like hey look at me i prettier than that cat there! the cat cannot use mascara but i can! and im taller than the cat. and i also got long pretty hair! i smell like lavender and roses but the cat smell of soil and drains! in conclusion more people will talk to me instead of the cat! YAY.
what the shit is this. freaking funny.
makes me laugh like crazy to myself.
i am not going to be offended, more like amused right. because i have a higher literacy rate than you, higher human development index ( duh coz you are of a totally different species altogether ). and everything you say that might feel like a witty insult to others is going to come back 6 x 10^23 back to you.
do not think even for one second that money is everything. at least do not think YOUR MONEY is everything. other people money, maybe yes. but not yours. coz you use a different currency. ( you not human ) spending alot of money on your friends does not mean that you can insult them and treat them like pangsai.
sometimes we feel guilty when we talk or even think bad about you but you have the freaking amazing talent to take away all compassion we have for you.
be that way.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
smart
i feel that i am very smart. i have been thinking very deeply just now. like contemplating my future my history etc. and i did not just think it. I CONTEMPLATED. like i used cheem words to think my thoughts. well. so i feel smart lah can. then i thought of oxymorons and felt veh smart as i try to imagine. no cannot imagine. as i tried to hallucinate. So cheem. like i never heard silence this loud before! its is a stark disparity. omg i love cheem words and phrases. i feel like a dictionary in human form! YAY. anyway one day i will. i will be good in computer. like IT expert. then i can make nice nice virtual life. i also dont know why. maybe for me to stalk myself or something. yes. no lah i want people to stalk me. you know why? coz i am a leaf but got no body. so i need stalk. kay what. anyway. yes. i also dont know what lah. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY! ( STAMPS FOOT IN A BIMBOTIC WAY ). but i have discovered steel inside me. no one can break me because i am seeing a trauma specialist.
walao whats this man. i think is so screwed up can. why i feel so sad? wrong. only on some days do i actually feel glad that i'm alive. yup. oh yeah. today i got this weird feeling. how to describe. but weird feeling will be described weirdly. OK. so i wanted to say, how much is this? then in my head i was telling my brain just say how much is this! just say. then i was thinking how to say. will it sound very lame? why i use how? how to use how? what does how mean? so i ended up saying how. then i pause awhile with mouth open. then close again then i said much. yup. like i think the sentence then i will think deeply ( contemplate ) then hallucinate then process then produce the word. didnt know talking was so difficult! everything is a challenge to me in this globalizing world. therefore i need to diversify my knowledge!
i am going to put up and tolerate sadness and loneliness because i am better than the rest of the human population. simply because i am not human. ( INHUMAN ) i can combine words! Omg! i so cool siahx. what shit lah i dont know how to stardae anymore can. then i think think think. why no one want to talk to me? am i difficult to comprehend? yes. am i rude? yes. am i weird? yes. do i dao people after i extract required info essential for my survival from them? yes i dao them and look away. i dao because i am a dao-ist! haha. marvel at my uncanny ability to turn everything into humour! yes yes. from now on i will make an effort to use a dictionary before i think. i will not think, i am hungry. i will think, the human being is experiencing a form of hunger and requires edible substance if not her activation energy will decrease. something like that. then i will drive myself crazy.
walao whats this man. i think is so screwed up can. why i feel so sad? wrong. only on some days do i actually feel glad that i'm alive. yup. oh yeah. today i got this weird feeling. how to describe. but weird feeling will be described weirdly. OK. so i wanted to say, how much is this? then in my head i was telling my brain just say how much is this! just say. then i was thinking how to say. will it sound very lame? why i use how? how to use how? what does how mean? so i ended up saying how. then i pause awhile with mouth open. then close again then i said much. yup. like i think the sentence then i will think deeply ( contemplate ) then hallucinate then process then produce the word. didnt know talking was so difficult! everything is a challenge to me in this globalizing world. therefore i need to diversify my knowledge!
i am going to put up and tolerate sadness and loneliness because i am better than the rest of the human population. simply because i am not human. ( INHUMAN ) i can combine words! Omg! i so cool siahx. what shit lah i dont know how to stardae anymore can. then i think think think. why no one want to talk to me? am i difficult to comprehend? yes. am i rude? yes. am i weird? yes. do i dao people after i extract required info essential for my survival from them? yes i dao them and look away. i dao because i am a dao-ist! haha. marvel at my uncanny ability to turn everything into humour! yes yes. from now on i will make an effort to use a dictionary before i think. i will not think, i am hungry. i will think, the human being is experiencing a form of hunger and requires edible substance if not her activation energy will decrease. something like that. then i will drive myself crazy.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Back to May
Last year this day this time I had one of the best days of my life. Following which were a series of happiness and sorrow. Lets go back to May. Feels just like yesterday can remember it freaking clearly. Yes traumatizing haunting. Why give me just to take it all away after a few months. Speaking of which at least I have had haded. But now its all gone. If you ever come back? Do you prefer having had but then losing everything. But at least you had right? But isnt it sad if one day you were king and the people were worshipping you and at your feet and the next day you're in rags and starving and sleeping on the streets and the very people who were worshipping you yesterday are spitting at you now? Would it be better if you were a beggar all your life? Then you would never have experienced the life of a king and would thus never yearn for it and live in confusion the rest of your life (what have I done to deserve this? I did not get to show the people what a good king I could be. Why am I a beggar now? Why wont you give me a chance?) It would spare you from all the heartbreak and tears and frustration and time wasted pondering what you have done to deserve such a fate. At least you would be complete. You would be happy. Now I am shattered.
With you, I have/had(?) the best days of my life. Now its all gone.
With you, I have/had(?) the best days of my life. Now its all gone.
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