my mother locked my laptop in her cupboard dammit, now i have to steal it then i can use it . how very horrible, this is like mental torture oks.
and today is her 40th birthday HAHA. actually bought her a present, so nice of me, why cant she just appreciate me.
i hate my life, it sucks, once again its my mother who caused it
i want my phone so badly
why cant i have it?
it has been confiscated for officially 2 months and 9 days what the hell.
70 DAYS
my mother loves doing this to me, haha.
oh shit, again i have vv alot and vv alot of homework, esp math
and when can i use the lovely World Wide Web again!
dammit why is everything taken away from me
want to take it away why bother giving it to me in the first place
so that she can bask in my sadness and mental anguish as she robs me of my possessions

i hate everything about me and now i have to go torture myself by doing stupid math.

this is very very unfair. my mother has confiscated my computer, and is going to cancel the internet connection. fine, i shall change the password. and dammit, she confiscated my phone AND READ MY MESSAGES. dammit, i should have locked the phone too right,
so horrible, my life sucks, how am i going to live like this

i hate my life because it sucks
and my life hates me because i suck

and lao shi is going to call my mother and tell her i sleep in class everyday every math lesson and i failed physics math geog so my mother's going to murder me but i havent shown her the ppr so she doesnt know but anyway she will know then i will die i hate my mother so much, she makes life worse than it already is and i feel like shit no diarrhoea now and i do not know what to do because everything i do fails so now i cannot do anything and tomorrow have tuition but i dont wanna go because i will just stone there like some pathetic lone freak who does not understand a single shit what the teacher is saying dammit how horrible is that
my life is a tragedy okay
i wonder how long it will be and when it will end
and today cca was very fun, because megan tells me weird things so i cannot stop laughing
for example, she said, you should name you children Francis Ulu and Carolyn Kane.
crazy right, then she said, name you daughter isabellastherballarinaria
okay then we were laughing like mad people okays, damn scary

and i have 7 math homework and all the holiday homework which is like 35 questions to do and i do not know how to do a single one
why cant i just die, because my life sucks.
if i can just like.
get a new lease of life.
then i can be a guy and everything would be so easy.
because like whatthehell, guys always get everything they want.
and now i have to off the computer cause i am a girl dammit.
I HATE BEING A GIRL
I HATE BEING FEMALE
DAMMIT WHY CANT I EVEN CHOSE MY GENDER

i hate everything about me right now
i am going to continue failing in term 2 oks
it is not my fault already cause i have tried alot of times
so it is not my fault anymore
do you know my life sucks
its really really horrible
thats an understatement cause i do not know how to express how horrible my LIFE is using nice impactful words cause i am not shakespeare and i can only i use words like horrible and bad and sucks

i have no life
cant even study properly rights.
now i cannot go to sleep cause i have not done my homeworks and i cannot do my homeworks cause i dont know how to do so what should i do now

i hate my life, can i have a new one please.
i will treat it with love and care so can i please have a new one please god.
i hate my face, my nose, my clothes, my papers, my ppr, my skin, my books, my brain, my fingers, my legs, my eyes ( omg some ppl say i look like the english teacher cause we have alike eyes or something! and she might be my cousin! ), this is horrible.
tomorrow is going to be worse, cause the tuition teacher likes to tell me that im wrong. and make me feel stupid and retarded and dumb and wasted.
this is horrible.
i hate my mother and grandmother. YOU KNOW WHAT THEY TELL ME.
WHY ARE YOU SO FAT.
CANNOT IS IT. IS BEING FAT A CRIME.
stupid horrible family, criticizes me everyday so sadistic.
why do they have to make me feel fugly and stupid.
okay this is because they keep they cannot stand a fat and stupid person related to them

see my life sucks i hate it so much
i want to go out now now now
anywhere but here is like heaven
I WANT TO END MY LIFE RIGHT NOW

PLEASE

this is the saddest year of my life
this are the saddest days of my life
i shall die
shit shit shit
this is horrible
i want to die

havent start doing stupid homework .
can i just die dammit.

i am going to die.
it is real this time.
i know i am going to die.
i will die.
yes i will.
its going to happen soon.
i am going to die.
okay bye.

i am human waste
i screws my life
i can just die okay
but its always so damn difficult
bye
i cannot continue
i have no life